the "something"

so.. today i went to check the "something"... the "something" was a lump i felt in my right breast. not big. as big as the top sction of my fore finger. doesnt hurt initially. doesnt move so much.

but it scared the hell out of me... cuak ok!!!

so...

i initially wanted to see this lady doctor in hartamas. doctor in the panel clinic which i always go to. somehow i kinda trust her. i went, only to find out that she is coming at 3pm and the doctor in at the moment was a man. so cancel..

called my mom and she said to go to this place in kg pandan or was it kg baru to the mammogram. but since i dunno the place and all.. i decided to go to clinic at the office

i went and the doctor said i should do a scan. so i came back at 12 ish and did it. i think they a new machine or something coz they were like 3 other ppl in the tiny room. my doc and 2 other persons. one of them was teaching my doc how to use the machine... so i jadi mcm guinea pig. she said if it was an older lady, 40 and above, they must both breasts but since im younger, buat sebelah je ok.. the breast yg ade the lump.

so they did the scan like twice coz first was the person teaching and then my doc. finally they told me its nothing prolly hard tissue coz they couldnt see it in the scan. hhmmm...

i glad but not really... coz the lump area kinda hurts but i think its coz of the pressing i did the last few days. i think im gonna do a mammogram later like next week or something..

its kinda scary.. knowing the how serious it could be. but thankfully for now its nothing.. maybe coz im getting my period.. its due something now... maybe its tomorrow..

i think all ladies should really do the BSE.. breast self examination. take it seriously.. i did mine like last month and only did again last saturday night coz i was reading a magazine about breast cancer awareness..

so you never know..

Weekend 1 without him

1. stayed in except for breakfast with Nadia.. had fun chatting with her... didnt feel like going out at all after that...

2. another fren came over later at night... made chocolate mousse.. and turned out very good! heheh

3. was reading a magazine about breast cancer awareness and started checking my own. felt something... :-(

4. going to the clinic today to check the "something"

5. mummy and daddy coming back today

6. and i want japanese food today...

7. i finally cleared my kitchen... 1st chore of many..

84 days to go

i have *that* many days to wait until dear mr. hubby comes back

i miss him already.. his presence.. knowing that he's around if i need him

i dont have that now..

teaching me that i should not take things for granted... i should not take mr hubby for granted..