March

it's been a month since i did the urut by the moroccan lady
the one where the lady 'betulkan' my womb and i cried like a baby -__-
since then, i have not exercised.. bad i know
but the lady said no hard exercise (i read: no exercise at all)
hahah.. and guess what!!?? i've put on another kg on top of the 6 that im trying to lose
so now im in a dilemma.. i wanna exercise but get pregnant too

i feel so fatty fat fat.. urghhhh!!
plus i have the Energizer Night Race in April
and i haven't practiced for... of courselah kan
in fact, i was suppose to forgo it but now i might change my mind

okay now.. why is it so hard to get pregnant?? why? why?
why is it when you dont want it.. it comes so easily
so am i suppose not to want it now?
my mom is indirectly on my case about it
she even got my these "pregnant" pills when she went to Perth
makanje lah... im praying that the pills works

but i think i need to exercise too..
i need to lose the flab on my tummy.. its horrendous like seriously

im gonna go for the fertility check-up too
just to make sure everything is ok.. kinda nervous about
but it's been postponed since last year
coz i wanna go to the one at LPPKN
and you have to be.. at least for the ladies
1. you must be having your period at least in the first 3 days coz they wanna do some hormone test
2. must not have sex or 'bersama suami' for at least 3 days before hand

so, yeah.. last year Mr. Hubby was away most the time
January was malas
February was takut nak ambik leave
so... March it is... must MUST MUST go
gonna apply for leave tomorrow

anyhow.. this weekend was good and bad
cooked with hubby anddddd
my wisdom tooth is growing and my gums are bengkak (what is 'bengkak' in english??)
like super duper bengkak.. i cant chew, i cant swallow even my sliver...
and to top it all off.. its giving me a blardy headache
when i have ironing, vacuuming and office work
so i skipped vacuuming, did 80% of the ironing.... office work... yet to know

and im feeling pukey
which i have been the last few days in the afternoon
super sucks okay! headache and feeling pukey
sangap!! and.. Mr. Hubby is at at work since 9am
its sunday for goodness sake..

oklah... enough ranting
need to finish my mushroom soup and pick my husband