scary blood test!

So today... I set another milestone (another??.. ye ke).. I went for my FIRST ever blood test! I have never done it before and just do know I’m really scared of injections... actually that’s putting it rather mildly.. I am TERRIFIED!!! Seriously! I would do anything to get away from injections.. when I was in Bali kan I had gastric.. I was suppose to receive a jab for it.. but I ask the doctor, is it possible to do away with the injection? He said yes. Take the tablet.. the effect of the tablet kicks in a few hours after the injection.. takpelah.. I sanggup bear the pain instead of going through with the injection!

Like just now.. I could have done it yesterday but I didn’t. pengecut! so, I made Mr. Hubby teman me this morning to do the clinic. I was okay while waiting but when they called my name.. I got scared. Then, when I sat in the doctor’s office.. and she took my arm… I become superscared. Seriously.. berape kali tah I asked her to wait.. let me cool down first.. I think 3 – 4 times.. I was shaking. But in the end, the doctor pulled my arm. Asked me to squeeze this squeezy thingy and to look away, lean back and relax. hahah... I did neither. I did squeeze that thing but only coz I was scared. Mr. Hubby said I was shaking.. the hand that kena the injection tu.. I didn’t lean back... or relaxed. I leaned into Mr. Hubby and squeezed his hands… takut giler kay..

But actually it didn’t hurt much.. just a little.. but because of my paranoia.. it went bonkers! After that, on the way down (clinic was on the 17th floor), I cried in the lift. I guess I tak sempat cry during the whole ordeal coz I was too scared., I cried after that.. shheeeesshhh.. I just wanted to check whether I have taken rubella jab when I was a kid. Sangat menyesal lari from the nurses back in school k.

I hope the results comes back positive for rubella.. which means I don’t have to take rubella shot and I can get preggy anytime I want. If it’s negative, then I have to take the rubella shot which means I can NOT conceive within the next 6 months AND I have to be on the pill just o make sure that I DON’T get preggy. After the 6 months, I could probably only conceive 2 months later due to the pill effect! Sedih k... just when I want to get preggy somewhat soon... this comes up.. dugaan Allah! I suppose we have to take it all in stride and hope for the best!

Wish me luck! I will only know results next Tuesday!